i missed him ;c

gosh, it made me sick every time i see his photos on my wall .. i feel something so strange. I don't know why it affected me so much though we've been together just for a very short time. he's someone so special, maybe those times meant nothing for him but it means a lot for me. yea, i almost fall for him, but i realized that i must stop dreaming. i once asked myself, "bakit ba di aq kayang mahalin ng taong mahal ku, habang di ku nman kayang mahalin ang taong mahal aq". maybe it's one of the irony of life that one must accept. i hate myself of having a feeling like this, kinda stupid.